Debut at The Bitter End

So an entire week and Christmas 2004 have passed since my gig at the Bitter End, but with as busy as the past few days have been... this is how it had to be.

The show went great! Lots of people came. I was hoping that 20 people would come to see me. 30 was the in-my-dreams figure. Thirty-one was the actual number. Friends and friends of friends brought friends of their own, and rounded out the crowd. I really appreciated the show of support.

I played 5 songs: fortune-teller; another again; shiver (it began snowing just as I was starting to play that song - happy accident); the prince, and living in fantasy. I definitely went over my allotted 15 minutes, but it was with the allowance of Larry, who runs the whole show.

Leading up to the show I'd mad rushed to put together the album I've been talking about for a year and a half now: the living in fantasy ep. I've had the recordings for the album for months. Now that I have a computer, I was able to burn copies/print covers/assemble the cds all in my own room. It's a simple package - it had to be - but the important thing is that it finally exists! And now since last Sunday night, 17 copies of it are scattered around the city of New York. Next up is to make it available to order over the internet Which reminds me, I have to renew my domain name!!

December day

I don't have to go to my job today, and that leaves for a lot of contemplation time.
Here I am, living in New York City. One of my girlhood goals fulfilled. My debut at the Bitter End is this Sunday night. What will come of it? I don't know. Nothing's really "happened" yet with the music career in NYC. If the gig turns ouut to be inconsequential, I'll be a little depressed. I realize, though, that my success here in that area depends on a mix of factors, and though luck is one, greater parts are hard work and determination (holy cow, cliche).

But as I sit around here in my apartment today, sort of straightening things up, vegging, and watching a DVD, I start to wonder if I can somehow, by my lifestyle, force a greater work ethic and sense of motivation. What I fantasize about doing sometimes is just hitting the road and playing gigs anywhere I have a personal connection, and there are a few places on that list: Grand Rapids (of course), Minneapolis, south-central Minnesota, rural coastal Washington state :), western Wisconsin, Nashville, Phoenix, parts of Chicago. Oh, but I don't have a car anymore, that's right. And I don't have money to do it. Well, not unless I were to expend my savings...

Just thinking aloud here. Life has been full and busy lately. Funny how one empty day off can get me thinking I need change. I can be very shortsighted sometimes.

But touring would be so awesome. I'll still dream about that.